March update

 

August 2016 vs March 2018.
About 35 lbs difference.

In my last update I mentioned that I had just begun visiting the gym again, doing some easy rehab training. On average, I’ve managed to get about 3 training sessions a week. Each session lasting for about 40 to 50 minutes.
Although it seems to help me a little with “immediate energy” (I feel really good for a few hours post-exercise), it’s a bag of mixed feelings. Don’t get me wrong, I will always love the gym and I feel right at home the moment I step into the weight room. What bugs me a little is how my illness affects my central nervous system and motor skills.
It takes me about 20 to 30 minutes to get any kind of “mind-muscle” connection where I actually feel the muscles working. At the start of a training session, it’s simply like I’m going trough motions without feeling anything at all (it’s almost like an out-of-body experience.) And for more complex multi-joint movements that I’ve been perfecting for more than 20 years – like power cleans, high-pulls, or even the deadlift – I feel awkward and off balance. I can’t get into the rhythm of the movement and there is no real explosiveness to speak of.
So, I mostly keep to cable exercises, some simple dumbbell exercises and two or three machines.

My recovery is also way off from where it used to be. I always train in the morning, I have a small meal when I get back home and then I have a powernap while listening to delta brain wave therapy for better recovery and relaxation. I do the same in the afternoon. This helps a little with my usual declining energy levels and brain fog. I also do some red and infrared light therapy (660nm to 850nm), especially on my face and eyes, which helps with my blurred vision and strained eyes in the afternoon and evening. Unfortunately, my red-light device is very small and a little bit on the weak side, so I have to prioritize the areas I wish to rejuvenate.

At least my abs are still there.

The positive news is that I’ve manage to stabilize my condition and, on some days, I feel a little better than I did two months ago. I’ve also reconnected with someone very dear to me, and we’re staying in close contact on a daily basis, which helps a lot with keeping up one’s spirit (especially after I had to relocate my wolfdog) and continue to find ways to heal myself – since the medical community has yet to do anything to help.
With that said, I still get wiped out after stressful and/or busy days – being abnormally tired and lethargic for days afterwards.

As for the second lump on my left leg, I still haven’t heard a word about surgery. I had the MRI in mid-December last year, which says a lot about the decline of the healthcare system in Sweden.
Fortunately, it hasn’t really grown, which is without a doubt thanks to my diet. Still, it’s clearly visible and I want it removed. Just have to wait I guess.

As for epigenetics (modifying genetic expression to improve your life and health.) My research continues. Since I still have trouble focusing, and my vision easily blur, it’s a slow progress since there are so many other things I want to pursue during the few hours I have energy. Still, it seems that I need to work with my COMT (fast), MAOA, and the GST/GPX genes.
I’m working on some protocols and I will start on them as soon as I’ve had a new visit to the doctor’s office – just in case they want to do something (that might screw everything up, haha.)
I will also document everything and share as much as I can here.

Until then, take care and have a wonderful day!

 

February update

It’s been a few rough weeks since my last update. During the last month, I came to the realization that – even with some occasional help – I was too sick to give my Czechoslovakian wolfdog everything he needed on a daily basis (attention, brain/mind exercise, etcetera.) As you know, I’m pretty much knocked-out in the afternoon and evenings. Brain fog, lethargy/tiredness, blurred vision, reduced sense of balance, and so on. So, I had to put my feelings aside and focus on what was best for Lovec. Fortunately, with some help from my wonderful friend Anna, we found a mutual acquaintance with a female Czechoslovakian wolfdog and two older huskies that simply adored Lovec and could take him in. He’s now with a new family at the outskirts of Luleå in northern Sweden with thousands of open acres to roam. I could simply not hope for a better place for him. Thank you, Anton and Svala, for bringing him into your family!
It’s been a wonderful 3 years and 9 months. I will miss you dearly wolfie – and as soon as I get better I’ll come and visit.

In the middle of this emotional rollercoaster, someone noticed a water leak in the basement of our apartment complex. After investigation, they concluded that a pipe had burst between my apartment and the apartment above me. So, I had to evacuate to a temporary apartment as they need to tear down my bathroom and one of the walls and floors – and since it’s an old house with asbestos, decontamination is needed and everything will take 4 to 6 weeks. I got help moving the most important stuff, but it was a couple of stress-filled days.

As for my condition/illness, nothing much has happened.
The investigation is ongoing. I have however, through nutritional experimentation, found a balance that works fairly well and I’m no longer getting progressively worse. It has stabilized somewhat.
I’ve also started to dive deeper into the field of epigenetics. I wrote a lot about this exciting field of study during 2016 and early 2017 in my newsletter. A lot of what I’ve been doing for years with my clients, such as nutrition/food choices, lower meal frequency, fasting, detoxification, elimination of pollutants, improved sleep, supplements and variations of the ketogenic diet, has now been backed up by the science of epigenetics. However, to heal and get better, I need to go deeper and learn more – a lot more.
Epigenetics – modifying genetic expression to improve your life and health – is a fairly new and cutting-edge aspect of medicine/natural healing. Most practitioners have no clue about epigenetics and dwelling into and translating genetic research is no easy task.


Left: the bloat after trying more protein (100+ g a day).
Right: after 3 days of low protein (60 g a day.)

Also, since I manage to stabilize my condition somewhat, and I still have some energy and mental clearness in the mornings and forenoons, I’ve decided to get back to the gym in the mornings and start an easy rehabilitation weight training program. Just enough to stop any further muscle loss and to hopefully stimulate some of my muscle memory. I’ve lost about 16 kg (36 lbs.) of muscle mass in the last year. My body weight has not been this low since when I was 18 years old and into long distance cycling and martial arts. So, I desperately need to gain some weight back and to rev-up my metabolism a little (as I wrote in a previous post, my thyroid-stimulating hormone [TSH] have dropped from 3.6 to 1.5.)

As usual, I will take notes and document everything I do. And if it yields any positive results, I will share it here and on other media platforms. Hopefully it can help others in similar situations.

Until next time, take care and God bless you and your families!

By | 2018-04-20T07:58:05+00:00 February 12th, 2018|Fighting Morgellons and Tumors, Uncategorized|1 Comment

January update

I’m sorry for the lack of updates. And to be honest, not that much have happened since my last post. While my health has progressively declined; the biggest news is that I’ve switched health care center and been assigned a new doctor. My previous doctor wrote a referral to specialists at a medical clinic, but he did not mention my symptoms, so the referral bounced back – wasting another three weeks of time. In other words, almost nothing has happened since I was put on sick-leave in October last year.

I visited my new doctor this past Monday and had some new blood work and tests done. I’m still waiting for the results, which will take a few days and up to 2 weeks. The only tests I could get a quick feedback on was for Lactate Dehydrogenase (LD) and Alkaline Phosphatase (ALP). LD was elevated a bit above the highest reference value and ALP was just above the highest reference.
LD is present in all cells of the body with its highest concentrations in heart, liver, muscle, kidney, lung, and erythrocytes. Elevations in LD is a sign of abnormal cellular breakdown in one or several of these areas and is usually linked to cancer and diseases involving the heart, liver, muscle, kidney, lung, and blood.
ALP is present in mainly our liver, bones, intestine, and placenta. Elevations in ALP is usually a sign of liver damage or disorders of the skeletal system that involve osteoblast hyperactivity and bone remodeling.
Looking at my medical history since late 2016 and my symptoms, these elevations comes as no surprises at all. It should also be noted, that these values have always been at the most lower end for me – so a rise to the upper end and above is huge.

One week after MRI and the  leakage of contrast agent. Nasty stuff!One week after MRI and the leakage of contrast agent. Nasty stuff!

The MRI of the lump in my left leg has been forwarded to the orthopedic clinic in Västerås, where they will consult with experts in Stockholm. In other words, I’m still waiting for an opinion and surgery. And yeah, they punctured my vein with the contrast agent (see picture). I took four weeks for that nasty stuff to disappear(!)

As for my symptoms. My brain fatigue has slowly progressed to the worse, and on some days, I’m pretty much wasted as early as 10 AM in the forenoon. Same goes with my eyesight. It’s perfect in the mornings where I easily can make out things at long distances. But it rapidly declines trough the day by becoming blurred and I also get light-spots in my field of view. Combined with brain fog/fatigue and lack of energy, it makes it almost impossible to even play simple games or watch documentaries to pass the time. My afternoons and evenings are pretty much a living hell of boredom.
I’ve also noticed that whenever I have to do a lot of stuff (in the few early hours when I can), or when I meet with people and have to focus to find the right words and keep a conversation going, I get totally wiped out afterwards – sometimes to the degree that I’m still tired in the morning the day after. I especially noticed this after my last visit to my doctor. Even if I only where there for 45 minutes, it took a lot out of me.

So, if you write me on social media, by e-mail or on messenger and I don’t get back to you – don’t take it personal. I still have tons of people trying to contact me on a daily basis, but I only have energy to get back to a few of you – and some days I simply don’t have the energy to write or communicate at all – or sort through all the mail and messages. Same goes for calling me on my phone. Thank you for understanding this.

God bless you and your families!

By | 2018-04-20T07:58:22+00:00 January 17th, 2018|Fighting Morgellons and Tumors, Uncategorized|1 Comment

Quick little update

Being severely ill – update mid-December

 

As with anything within the Medical “Health Care” System in Sweden, every little thing moves at the pace of a frozen slug. In other words, nothing much have happened since my last update on November 30.
My health has decline a little more since my last update. It takes a little longer in the mornings to mobilize energy and my tiredness and brain fog set in a bit earlier, around 10 or 11 AM. I usually nap for 1 to 2 hours after lunch and then I hit bed around 8 PM and sleep 8 to 10 hours. Afternoons are like living in thick fog. Nothing gets done. I also started waking up with a stiff lower back and some minor pain. Still, I’ve never been bothered by a little pain and it’s nothing compared to walking around like a vegetable most of the day.
I’m still outdoors about 2 hours a day though – trying to move around and activate my body to the best of my abilities.

So, what’s more is new? I’m scheduled for an MRI (my leg and lower back) on December 19. And I’m still waiting for a referral to a team of specialists for more in-depth tests.

 Looks exactly like what was removed from my leg in January

And yes, I know what the “unidentifiable” dark blue/black spiderweb-like strings are. Being woke, I’ve known of its existence for several years. Unfortunately, it’s still frown upon by many. Funny enough, I’ve been contacted by several foreign experts, doctors and people in similar situations who are a little more awake than the brainwashed and programmed/conditioned medical community – and they all told me the same. Still, I do not know the severity of my condition, nor how badly damaged my organs are – and if there are more underlying problems.
From the few tests done, all I know is that my thyroid-stimulating hormone (TSH) dropped from 3.6 to 1.5 from the start of the year to October. Albumin and glucose are present in my urine. My blood albumin levels are at the higher end (45 g/L), still I only consume 60 to 100 grams of protein a day.
Lactate dehydrogenase (LD) is also in the upper range (3.4 µkat/L), which is a sign of tissue damage, mainly from organs.
And… my S-Vitamin D, 25-hydroxi status is good at 210 nmol/L, which is funny because I’ve only been taking about 3000 IU (75 mcg) D3 and 75 mcg of K2 about 3 times a week for the last 6 to 8 months. Before that I took about 6000 IU and 150 mcg K2 about 4 to 5 times a week. So, it’s suspiciously high for such a low consumption.
I’m still missing a lot of blood tests and data. They took some in October, which I never received. Then they realized that half of the tests were missing, so I went in for new tests in early December. And of course, they only took the ones that were missing – and not a whole new panel so we could compare to the old ones. Now they have some samples from October and some completely different samples from December, but no clue if anything changed during October to December. Such a bunch of amateurs.

So yeah, the few hours of mental clarity I have each day pretty much go to all useless crap like this – trying to keep the ball rolling and find out what exactly is wrong and what is failing.

That’s it for now. I’ll keep you all updated.

Much love for all the comments and wishes in Social Media and all the messages I’ve received about similar conditions.

By | 2018-04-20T07:58:38+00:00 December 13th, 2017|Fighting Morgellons and Tumors, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Update – being severely ill

Prologue and current status

 

 Me and my wolfie. Me and my wolfie.

In late 2016 I started to lose weight and I felt tired and lethargic. I also noticed a little lump on my right leg close to the hip on the Illiotibial band (IT-band) that grew rapidly.
In January of 2017 I underwent surgery and had a large stringy mass removed. The mass itself had a little fibrous center with small scattered elements of scar tissue and long black string-like growths, making it about 5 to 6 cm (2.3 inches) all stretched out. The experts who study it could not identify the black spiderweb-like strings. The statement from the surgeon and the experts simply said “a cancerous growth with unknown and unidentifiable mass”. That is very weird. Anyway, they thought it was benign and not malignant.
At the time when this mass was removed, I got a new hard lump on my other leg – also along the IT-band near the hip. As I did some prolonged fasting (7-day water/mineral fast) and then followed a ketogenic diet, it didn’t change in size and I started feeling better. During April to June I almost felt like my old self again.

Then in July I started to get cold/flu-like symptoms in the morning that went away after a few hours. I didn’t give it much thought until I noticed that my energy levels began to plummet in the afternoon. In September I began to have trouble focusing on tasks. Writing, for example, has always been fluid for me, but now I had to dictate what to write inside my head and I also had to re-read what I wrote to remember what to write next. My eyesight also started to blur in the afternoon or after longer periods of focusing on something. My thinking slowly started to feel sluggish and later in the day I couldn’t even read or watch a short video clip on YouTube without losing focus and interest.
In October I visited my doctor, got some basic tests done and received a long-term sick-leave. We also started a medical investigation. As I write this, (after 1.5 months) I’m still waiting for a remittance to a medical clinic that has the equipment and competence needed.

As I write this, I still feel somewhat lethargic upon waking at about 5 AM. But after an hour I feel pretty good and this is when I take my longest walk with my dog (1.5 hours). As I return home I have decent mental clarity and my energy levels are ok. I feel like 75 to 80 % of my old self.
However, this state rapidly declines as the hours passes. At about 9 or 10 AM I’m down to about half my usual pace, whether it be writing, reading/studying or doing anything else that need some kind of cognitive ability. At 11 or 12 AM I begin to feel sluggish (can’t focus or think clearly) and a few hours later my senses feel dulled, like moving through fog. My eyesight is reduced and slightly blurred, my motions when moving around feels like they’re lagging behind, like a movie that is out-of-sync. I have a hard time focusing and nothing really catches my interest – and if it does, I can only focus on it for a minute or two. It’s like being totally burnt-out, but then you feel almost normal again for a few hours the next day.
So… my days feel extremely short as I only have 4 to 6 hours of mental clarity and energy. As for the rest of the day, I could as well be sleeping.
This also means that my time for getting anything done such as communicating with doctors and hospitals, fighting with retarded government agencies, writing, studying, reading, talking with family and friends and simply living is extremely limited. Actually, this whole post was written during short periods spanning about 7 days.

In the past, I’ve always healed myself using nutrition and food supplements – and while I’m still uncertain about all the underlying causes for my illness, I know for certain that I have high levels of inflammation. If I do anything that increase the level of inflammation, my symptoms worsen and new arises.
If I eat grains or dairy, I get flares of psoriasis, severe cold-like symptoms and I get bloated. If I eat too much carbohydrates in one sitting (more than 50 grams), I get sugar in my urine, blurred vision and I can almost fall asleep standing (signs of diabetes). And for protein, if I consume more than 20 grams of protein in a sitting, I get noticeable amounts of albumin in the urine – to such a degree that it turns white. So, my kidneys are probably struggling. I also feel somewhat better in ketosis or when fasting – two scenarios that is very anti-inflammatory.  

However, I’ve lost a lot of muscle mass since my first operation, close to 14kg (31 lbs.), and my body fat is really low – so fasting to heal a little is not really an option as I actually need to gain weight. Also, to try to gain (or even maintain) weight on a ketogenic diet is tricky for me; because if I eat too much fat, I get the runs, which means loss of both calories and a lot of vital nutrients and electrolytes. And I can’t go especially high on the protein because of my kidneys. Actually, I have to settle with about 80 to 100 grams of protein a day. So, for the moment, I try to balance my diet as best as I can. And yes, it’s challenging.
Since I feel better in the morning and carbohydrates make me tired and drowsy, I consume as much fat and protein as my body can handle in the morning and mid-day. And since I’m pretty much a vegetable in the afternoon anyways, I start to consume my carbohydrates towards the evening to up the calories. So far, this is what works the best.

Hopefully, I will get to visit a team of specialists soon and perhaps find out the underlying causes – so I can make a plan for total recovery. I’m also waiting for an MRI, to find out how bad the second lump on my leg is and if I have more that is hidden and not visible to the eye.
I will keep you updated through this website and my Facebook. Perhaps my journey can help someone in a similar position.

Much love to all of you!

By | 2018-04-20T07:58:52+00:00 November 30th, 2017|Fighting Morgellons and Tumors, Uncategorized|0 Comments